|Negation Chapter 14
||[Jan. 23rd, 2013|05:39 pm]
I received an interesting message in my inbox today, and since I desperately need a work break, I decided to respond in full. Thank you, asmithereens, for the thoughtful request.
I originally revised Chapter 14 of Negation because the original version had an in-depth scene with Justin, having just successful filed a lawsuit regarding his bashing, pushing Brian to let him top. Or maybe not "pushing." It struck me back in 2006 as insensitive, first, to present a final sex scene that was so explicit in a rape fic - and second, an explicit scene in which Brian would "let" Justin top though he was clearly uncomfortable with the idea seemed all kinds of problematic.
asmithereens's request to read the original, however, had me dig up the original which amazingly has survived on a flashdrive. And now that I have a LOT more perspective on these characters than I did in 2006, on a re-read, I thought maybe the original scene is not necessarily so very inappropriate. For one, Justin can be insensitive and selfish, and he's coming off a personal issue that leaves him feeling at once empowered and vulnerable. And Brian has something to prove.
So I'm reposting the original scene here - completely unedited from May 2006 - and I'm going to link this post back to the edited version for a variorum of sorts. To be honest, I didn't even re-read the original before posting it, just sort of skimmed the sex scene for the relevant parts to make sure it wasn't outright offensive - I don't think it is. If anyone is still reading this journal, and feels inspired to comment on the original v. edited scene, the issues I've mentioned or anything at all I've missed, please feel free to let me know what you think.
I hope you all remain well and happy in your lives all these years later, whether in or out of the QAF fandom!
Negation, Chapter 14, original: (the story in full starts here: http://jane2005.livejournal.com/42468.html#comments)
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